Paus

Jag funderar på att ta paus i studierna. Ett mellanår eller nåt. Jobba lite och samla tankarna. Helst nu genast efter jul. För jag orkar inte. Jag bara orkar inte just nu!
Jag sitter som kassör i en nybildad styrelse och ska försöka fundera ut vad jag egentligen vill och dessutom har jag världens identitetskris på gång.

(Parentes: Ellen DeGeneres är min nya idol. Hon är freakin' hilarious.)

Shit is going down. I'm having a first (and hopefully not last) lunch date with someone I like very much and I don't know how to act. I don't know that much about this person (yet). I'd like to, of course, but I don't know how to do my questioning without making an interview out of our date. We're both pretty quiet and I'm terrified the conversation will die out and it'll just be embarrassing. But too much questions might get disturbing, and no one can read that poker face (me neither), so I wouldn't know where the line goes. So keeping away from lines but still keeping up the conversation? Can I manage that?

No pressure, my future lies in my own shaky hands and one mistake might ruin all the chances I ever had. Well, I guess the main problem is that I don't really know if we play for the same team (you know). If I get that wrong it could become very very awkward...

I'm almost panicking!